Reality of the Situation

I must say things have really gotten real. The touring attitude is over and now its time for the real thing. I have been at my new University going on the second week. I have been going through culture shock and to be honest it is horrible. It is very hard to comprehend that I am not going to get everything, that I am going to be confused most of the time. Even when I tell myself this it does not seem to sink into my head. Spanish class is the hardest. The class is nothing like in the states. Its no learning a foregin language out the book it is all speaking. Explianations are in Spanish, homework directions are in Spanish. I get so upset when I spend three hours on my Spanish homework and all of it is wrong. I get so upset when I am sitting in class and cannot form the question I need an answer to in Spanish. I get so upset when everyone around me can understand what the teacher is saying but me. I get so upset when the teacher I must say things have really gotten real. The touring attitude is over and now its time for the real thing. I have been at my new University going on the second week. I have been going through culture shock and to be honest it is horrible. It is very hard to comprehend that I am not going to get everything, that I am going to be confused most of the time. Even when I tell myself this it does not seem to sink into my head. Spanish class is the hardest. The class is nothing like in the states. Its no learning a foregin language out the book it is all speaking. Explianations are in Spanish, homework directions are in Spanish. I get so upset when I spend three hours on my Spanish homework and all of it is wrong. I get so upset when I am sitting in class and cannot form the question I need an answer to in Spanish. I get so upset when everyone around me can understand what the teacher is saying but me. I get so upset when the teacher has to go back, slow down, or repeat the whole thing just because I do not understand. I do not know what to do. I want to go home but I have to fight this out I have no choice. Things really have gotten real and I do not know what else to do that I am not already doing. I do not know if I am at my end. I have cried so much this pass week and today it is almost scary. I push a smile on my face and I try to blend in but the reality of the matter is studying abroad is hard, and challening. This is not intened to push anyone away from studying abroad this is just the reality of doing it. Know that things will seem so different and that things will not come so easy as they once did before. I am scared that I am going to fail I do not know what else to do but cry. I have been told it will get better wait it out but honestly how long am I gone have to wait before I can grasp the language, the grammer? How long is it going to take to understand my teacher? I hope this does not turn anyone away from studying abroad but only give a realization of the things ahead.